The "Little Miss"-and us!

family

2011-08-02T22:53:00.000-07:00

What else can I say, except that she has become my most favorite person in this world. (Next to Eric of course!) I can hardly believe she is 7 months old. Before I know it we'll be celebrating her 7th birthday. now THAT is scary. I just know this. I never knew how much a heart could grow until this little life changed every essence of my existence. How lucky am I that she came to us! Let the fun begin. My sister's keep telling me she acts just like I did. That is hard for me to imagine. But I believe it. Hang in there Eric....We'll make it!

A Few Recents....

2011-07-03T00:08:00.000-07:00

It has been a while since I have posted any pics of the little girl. Icannot believe how big they get...and how fast they do it. This little girl definitely has us wrapped around her little finger. Her personality is coming to life and there is not a day that goes by that we don't laugh with her. Yes, WITH her. She is such a funny girl.

I have gone back to work, and don't get me wrong, I love what I do, but it takes everything I have to not think about and long to be with my baby every second I'm away from her. I will work toward going part-time as soon as I can.

I love this pic...we [i] took Kyla to get her ears pierced a couple weeks ago. Little daisies. I just love them. Yes, it was sad to see her scream for a minute...but I"m amazed at how quick she got over it.

This little girl absolutely loves her daddy. All the time they spend together when I'm working has just magnified their little relationship. I love it!

This is just her goofy little self.

and a few more....

2011-04-05T21:53:00.000-07:00

A few more....

2011-04-05T21:51:00.000-07:00

Beauty...in the most purest form!!!

2011-04-03T17:35:00.000-07:00

Three months!n I cannot believe it was a short 3 months ago We welcomed this beautiful little gal into our lives. It seems we have never been without her. She is the absolute most perfect thing we've ever done. And we adore her more and more everyday. She is starting to talk up a storm....(or squeal....) and she recently found her HIGH voice....ya.....interesting....

There are some pics of her blessing dress. I actually didn't get any of her in the dress the weekend of the blessing, so we did these the other day. It was fun. One day I will be a pro-photographer.

Trip to AZ

2011-03-20T18:05:00.000-07:00

The beginning of March, Eric and I took a trip to Az-so we could bless Kyla down with my family. It was a 10 day trip for myself and Kyla, that went by all too quickly.

This is my second parents....Dan and Joyce Bott.

some more of the "mini me"

2011-02-28T11:41:00.000-08:00

Love love LOVE her little smile.

A few of her cute little outfits.

A little bed head, after riding in the car seat for Um-teen hours. I thought it was sooo funny.

some thoughts....

2011-02-04T16:40:00.000-08:00

So I have tried to post pics of our little boogar.....but I haven't really written anything. So, I think I'll try now. Not for your reader purposes, but more for venting purposes.

I can't beieve Kyla is here....and that she is actually 5 weeks old tomorrow. It seems only yesterday when I was working, feeling contractions, then home and heading to the hospital. The whole event went so much better than I could have ever imagined....and so much more painful (in the beginning.) I discovered I am much more of a wimp in the childbirth department than I thought i would be. As I posted on facebook, I love me an epidural. Those women who face the pain without one...you are CRAZY! :) More power to ya.

Kyla came fairly quickly, with soooo much hair and was soo sooooo beautiful. Ok, so her first day or two (or more) she was the funny looking newborn with lots of vernix and a cone shaped head. But she was ours! All ours! After having the fear of having and ugly newborn, I still maintain she was beautiful.

Life since then has been a rollercoaster. We had guests/family in our home for about 3 weeks. I cannot put in words how grateful I was to have my sisters come and spend days with me. It surprisingly made me soooo much more homesick for my family in Az. The other part I did not expect with her birth, were the tears....I do blame those tears on exhaustion in that first week. By the end of each day, I was emotionally and physically spent, and my body only wanted to cry. So it did. I did. It was weird. Those days are much farther apart now, but the exahusting nights remain. I believe Kyla had so much love and so many people wanting to hold her all the time for so many weeks, she doesn't enjoy being put down yet:) As I type, she has been in her pack-n-play for 40 minutes, crying, fussing, and sleeping on and off because she can't just surrender and sleep! It will be a process! and I don't know if I'm ready. But ready or not.....

One thing I learned....Well, I did not learn this, but it greatly humbled me. After having a baby, it is amazing the amount of support and love and service that gets poured out in your direction. I had people from church I've never even met before volunteer to feed us. Though I claimed it was strange having strangers care for us, I admit, it was humbling and such an example. I wanna be more like those strangers, able and willing to serve others, even if I don't know them. I have had friends, and co-workers, and family send stuff, call, come by to visit....It is amazing the love that pours out,,,and once again, I am humbled. So I'll end with a thank you. A very humble, and tearful thank you to those who have served my little family in these weeks past. There are no others words to portray what my heart feels. You will be blessed in return. I just know it!

more pics of my sweet girl!

2011-02-03T15:17:00.000-08:00

Thanks Annie....:)

2011-02-02T20:25:00.000-08:00

4 Shows i watch...
*Grey's Anatomy. (No, Kyla is NOT named after this show!!!) lol
*The Mentalist
*NCIS Los Angeles, NCIS
*AMerican Idol, America's got talent, The Sing Off

4 Things i am Passionate About...
*My family
*The Gospel
*My home
*My dogs... :)

4 Phrases i say a lot...(lately)
*Shut the Front Door!!!
*What-a-matter...(when Kyla is screaming for what seems like endless hours...)
*"Drake....BED!"
*Chuy....quiet! get down.

4 Things i have learned from the past...
*The past can/will haunt you at random times in random places..., but focus on the future!
*Things can ALWAYS get worse. but will eventually get better. hang on.
*also...in hindsight, things were never as bad as they seemed.
*be kind. Smile...and make friends! You never know someone will need you... or you will need someone.

4 Things i did yesterday...
*Laundry...(baby laundry smells SOOOO good.)
*Ordered a crib for the baby room finally!
*Trip to Sonic! Oh the sweet nectar!....
*Changed many many diapers, rocked Kyla many many minutes, and kissed her chubby cheeks many many many times!

4 Places i would love to visit...
*Autralia
*Tahiti
*Spain
*Tour Europe

4 Things i am looking Forward to...
*Getting more than 3 hours of sleep at one time....(maybe in the next few weeks)
*My trip to AZ with Eric and Kyla in the up coming weeks. Can't wait to see my az family/friends, & for Kyla's baby blessing.
*Hearing the first words come out of Kyla's mouth. ("mama")
*The day i dont have to work..and i can stay home and be a mom full time.

4 Things i love about Winter...
*I do love woodstoves, though we do not have one. (sad face)
*Being able to wear more clothes, versus less
*Holidays & families...Games & stories
*Skiing

4 Peeps to TaG...

This on is hard...cause I don't know who reads this blog...so I tag anyone who wants to participate.
(Emily Despain....)

2011-01-24T20:11:00.000-08:00

Newborn pics with Nikki

2011-01-24T19:55:00.000-08:00

While my sister was here visiting, we went and had a friend/co-worker take pics of Kyla. The session lasted much longer than I thought due to feeding, changing, etc....but Nikki was great. Her little boy kept trying to share his toys to make Kyla feel better. It was soooo sweet. Anyway, we really like this pics....Thanks Nikki.

Absolutely IN LOVE!

2011-01-10T17:10:00.000-08:00

How can a heart grow so much! Find all the extra room to love a little girl oh so much. I am so proud...and happy to have her here. I can't believe she is all mine...(and Eric's too! ) lol

Just wanted to post a few more pics. She changes sooooo much everyday! How is it even possible.

Shout out!

2011-01-04T18:54:00.000-08:00

Shout out to the Amazing Cassie Jones for the AWESOME pictures....I REEEEALY wish she were here to take pics of Kyla.
Go check out her website. She is amazing!
www.photographybycassiejones.blogspot.com
Thanks Cassie...You are AMAZING!

Introdrucing....

2011-01-04T18:50:00.000-08:00

KYLA GREY ZWEIFEL!!!!
Story to come.....

Some of this....and that....

2010-12-27T20:42:00.001-08:00

Emily, the sweet friend who put together my babyshower. Then a couple belly pics...and the group of awesome ladies who came to the shower. I am so so so blessed to have such wonderful people in my life. Thank you so much to those who came....and those who couldn't.

11days!

2010-12-27T16:42:00.000-08:00

Only 11 days til I'm due....and I'm Huge for REALS this time!

Another belly shot....

2010-10-20T12:45:00.000-07:00

Figured I would post a few up to date belly pics. they are not good, and I'm sorry, but at least there are some. It is hard to have a pic taken when you feel like a chunk and it grows daily. Today I simply stepped in the bathtub to open the curtains....getting out, I tripped, and knocked over the vacuum as well as pulled a few muscles. I can't believe how OFF balance you become very quickly. Anyway....the count down is on. only almost 2 1/2 months. CRAZY! So much to do....

Robert and Lynette surprised us by purchasing this pack-n-play for us. We love it! (We picked it....but their generosity is not overlooked.) It was funny watching ERic struggle to put it together. That is, until he found the directions. The closet is the start of her wardrobe. Baby clothes are so fun. If she takes after her dad, we are in trouble!:)

um.....ya.

2010-10-17T18:09:00.000-07:00

This pic was taken a few weeks ago, so I am definitely bigger, (I will take more pics soon:) But this is the first belly shot. It's amazing how much tighter and stretchier I feel everyday. I can't do the normal things as easily....like tie my shoes....like bend over to pick stuff up off the floor. and I'm not even that huge yet! it's kind of funny.

This is compliments of Rusty. Talk about motivation. Yikes!

House....&....Baby

2010-08-30T23:46:00.001-07:00

So, it has been a very busy yet fun month. Finally i am feeling better. I actually do stuff. I spend many many weeks, on the couch, sleeping, in bed, sleeping, watching movies, tv, etc. It was awful. I felt awful...both physically, and just in general especially for Eric. I never wanted to do anything, but he was so sweet and helped me out and never complained. Now that that has passed, we have been busy looking and choosing a house to buy. Well, we found it, and our projected closing date is Sept 15th. Which is way exciting.

To make the month even better, we had my 20week Ultrasound last week. Yep! That means we know what we are having! Welcome to Baby GIRL Zweifel. We got some fun pics, so I'll try to get them on the computer soon. Now we are thinking about names. Any ideas? Leave me a message with your ideas. Not too traditional, but not too crazy, either. Please help!

Idaho Falls

2010-08-30T23:27:00.000-07:00

Another trip we took in July, to the Zweifel Reunion in Idaho Falls. The little guys were SO tired after spending the night for the first time at an open kennel. They seemed to like it. Then they crashed!

We thought the temple there looked so pretty with the lights and the falls. Pictures just don't do it justice.

Back in June...

2010-08-30T23:12:00.000-07:00

Back in June we had a piece, or 3 pieces, of home came to visit. Three of my awesome nephews. We had fun. They had fun....( I think) but I introduced them to Rockband...and this is their debut!...

I think it's hilarious Drake thinks he is a lap dog! I guess he gets a little jealous of the little guys!

Stupid Computer

2010-08-30T12:45:00.000-07:00

My computer is being VERY dumb. I can't upload pictures the right way, so I never know what pictures I'm writing about. These are just a few of a hike we went on when My good friend Laura and David came to visit. It was the first time I'd done ANYTHING outside for weeks being that I didn't feel good 99.9% of the time. It was a beautiful day, and Drake had fun too!!!

Is it time????

2010-06-24T03:23:00.001-07:00

Well, I have debated and debated on when to post THIS....of all posts. I think many of you will agree it is definitely a delicate matter, and timing is important.

Well....Here goes. Somewheres...around the 7th of January 2011.....the newest addition of our little family should be making their grand entrance. That's right folks! After about 10 months of trying, 2 rounds of clomid,(which I realize is very minor), the worst Hot Flashes I have EVER experienced in my life, we finally will be having a baby! We couldn't be more excited,,,,or more nervous. I'm 12 weeks this Friday, and feel like it's time to share the news.

On August 23rd we will find out if it's a Him or a Her....(though I keep thinking girl)-Any guesses?

Anyway....that's the latest and greatest from the Zweifel household. Now I have only months to train my dogs they CAN'T jump up on everything. There is work to do....OH, and if this nausea could stop anytime soon,,,,that would be AWESOME!

Chau....

The GreenBelt.

2010-04-13T15:10:00.000-07:00

We went for a walk down the green belt here in Boise. It is sooooo beautiful!!!!

Day at the park.

2010-04-13T13:16:00.000-07:00

A few weeks ago, Eric and I took Drake and headed to a park with Emily, Ethan and Silas. It was overcast, but it was so nice to just get outside.

Eric and Ethan, playing.....lol

what can i say. he loves to play:)

This slide was funny. it looks like a tongue,,,and its so narrow.

Kinda goofy. but I love it!

Love it!

Stuff....randoms.....

2010-03-26T00:00:00.000-07:00

I have been meaning to post something of "greatness" on the ole-bliggity blog lately. But every time I sit to do just that....nothing seems to fit that category. Something really Great! Hummmm.....So I thought about posting about work. About how I was put on the Code team the other night, to respond to any code throughout the hospital....and then freakishly My very own patient was the patient who coded. The first time it was MY patient. But then i didn't write about it, because most people don't really wanna hear about stuff like 'near-death' instances, CPR and intubation. So.....I won't talk about work. lol....

How about friendship:
I have had some really great times with my new friend and neighbor down the street. Time just hanging out! Laughing. Talking. Playing games for hours. Watching movies, laughing some more. It reminds of past times. I mean...we all have friends, acquaintences, or people whom we do and don't connect with; and friendships that just come easier than others. For the past few weeks, I have really reflected upon some of those friendships I've had. As the single person, I didn't fully understand how friendships change when you get married. After moving a billion miles away, and getting married, the friendship category took a major shift. I am so grateful for the new friends Eric and I have made. And i am so grateful for the many friends I have had throughout the years who have been examples to me, and taught me the type of friend I WANT to be. I have definitely been blessed with amazing people in my life. The sad/weird thing is, i had almost forgotten how much I enjoy the company of a true and honest friend...and I was almost okay with it. almost :)

What else to spill.
Humble pie anyone? I don't know about you, but I continue to learn the same lessons very frequently. Tonight at work, I came in, looked at my schedule...and spent hours planning in my pissed off little head, a confrontation with my boss about how inconsiderate I thought she was being, and yadda yadda yadda.....I thought she was throwing a few night shifts in the midst of my day shifts (without even speaking, or expalining anything to me)...and for those of you who have worked nights, you know the switching is not easy. Well, after ranting and venting....I found out that the "p" didn't mean pm-am, but it meant "Preceptor"-I'll have someone with me on the DAYS I'll be working. Go figure. So, when I learned that via my charge, I hung my litle head in shame, blushed and just stated....."I deserve this!" When will I learn to keep my mouth shut...and simply Ask!!!! Embarrassing. I sure got mine!

Ok....so that's enough. PS-Eric's business is rocking! I'm so proud of him. I just hate how he is always working! Oh the joys of your own business.

cheers everyone! I hope all is well in blogger world!

wicket.

2010-03-24T20:29:00.000-07:00

Let me try this again....
Desiree, Brandon and Wicket stopped for an overnight visit. The dogs missed their old friend...and I think had a good time.
Desiree was my roomie in Tucson for over a year. Wicket....is the 3rd brother to my two pups....and chuys bestie! It was awesome to have them come! I miss old friends.

Little Trip to McCall

2010-03-24T19:52:00.000-07:00

We took a little trip up the mountain to a cute little town called McCall with the DeSpains. We had a good time just hanging out. Playing games, swimming, eating. This pic is emily and Silas, on the drive up. that little boy is so fun!

The boys playing near the frozen lake. there was lots of ice-fishing going on.

Here is Ethan and Eric, waiting to play games as Emily and I made one of our many trips to the vending machines:)

Silas and Emily! So cute!

One year Already!!!!

2010-03-15T22:40:00.000-07:00

It is so hard for me to believe not only that I have lived in Boise over a year now, but also that I have been married....ONE YEAR! Saturday was Eric and my anniversary. It was a quiet day....but a good one! And we ended it eating a fabulour italian restaurant. We decided since we had a pasta bar at our reception....we would make it a tradition! Pasta/Italian every march 13th!

I do apologize for the picture overload to follow...I thought I'd post a run of pictures from our big day, back to our first days of dating.....It's not as many as I found.....but some of my favorite memories. Sadly, they all look the same, but I promise they each have a story and a memory....

I love the cake in the face picture. It was so much fun....and it reminds me of the random laughs we have.

I think this pic is funny...Us in the biking get up. My sister Angie visited last september, and we went biking. Eric loves it. I'm still not good at it all....but I think I wanna try to get into it.

this is at Eric's brother's Scott and Amanda's wedding. Good times!

this was our first camping trip we took. My family reunion in Luna NM. We took Cimmeron on his quad, Eric on his bike, and I on a quad...went ridin through the mud to the az state line. It was a fun time...and even funner trying to clean up while camping.

Jackson hole trip with Eric's dad and family.

The next few from our fabulous week in Cabo when Eric FINALLY proposed! Man, I wish I was that tan now:)

Just funny!

Eric and his dad came to Tucson one weekend, so we went to Pinnacle Peak for dinner and cheesy entertainment.

Our first ski/snowboarding trip. Then the 2nd...

Awww......I just love him! And his kisses!

Nice cold-sore on my lip.

I think I'd known him 2 weeks? and we went for this LOOOOOONG drive. It ended up being pretty fun. I learned he loved to take pictures of scenary.

It's FINALLY here!

2010-02-02T13:55:00.000-08:00

so this is it! The Bed FINALLY got here. They were one night stand short, but say its coming soon. And, already they have to replace the head board. slight crack-age at the top. but, that will be replaced soon too. We love it. We need new bedding....and to re-finish my dresser. It makes everything else look so...BLAH!!! What do you think?

Claim to Fame...

2010-01-31T16:39:00.000-08:00

So, this is me. With Enrique Inglesias. A few years ago in New York City. I was having a discussion the other night with Eric, and he apparantly hadn't heard the story about me being at the Today show, and getting to meet The guy thanks to listening to a hillarious, obnoxious, and completley annoying (which I miss so much) morning show in AZ. This is the proof. Had to post it....so he would believe me.

HELP!

2010-01-06T18:35:00.000-08:00

Somebody needs to help me figure out that heading thing. can't get the picture to fit right.....HOW DO I FIX IT??????????? ARGHHHHHH!

Christmas Letter

2009-12-18T10:13:00.000-08:00

I know you have already seen this pic., but this is the pic on our Christmas card, so I'm posting it again. Here is our Christmas letter too. Sorry i was not able to send one to each and every one of you. Just know if you are reading this, we love and appreciate you and wish you Happy Holidays!

I have actually stressed a bit over attempting to write this Christmas letter. I have received such fun, creative, and entertaining letters in the past, yet I have no idea how to join in on the yearly originality. So, goal for this year: FINISH FIRST CHRISTMAS LETTER EVER!

2009 has been a year to remember for us. We have been so blessed. It began with the crazy plan to leave the perfectly warm weather and familiarity of Arizona, to venture up the road to the unknown freezing and friendly Boise Idaho. Next was the whirlwind of a wedding in March which came and went with a single breath. Don’t forget to add in the mixture of Eric’s new business, and my new job. Sounds like nothing, I know, but it has proven to be a lot of ups and downs and long hours. (ok, mostly for EricJ)

Eric and his business partner started a new Dental Lab, WhiteCap Dental Studio. It’s just the two of them and they are really busy and doing well. Eric puts in many long hours and is getting faster and improving each day. I couldn’t be more proud of the success he has created. He loves Boise and spent a lot of his free time mountain biking and enjoying the great outdoors earlier this year. He is now super excited for the winter season, especially snowboarding.

I started working at St Luke’s in the Surgical ICU. Talk about a challenge. Here it is a year later, and I’ve mastered very little, except for dropping every piece of expensive equipment I can get my hands on. That, and the phone number to feed my patients. I’ve met quite a few very nice people, and have come to the conclusion living in Boise will make me younger, for a common thread I have found is that everyone here looks younger than they are! Anyway… As Christmas approaches, I find myself struggling to create my own traditions and Christmas projects. I still find myself at ‘home’, in Eagar, with my mom- and feeling so inept. I finally decided it will come…

It has been an interesting year, as we have adjusted to a new community, new jobs, new friends, new marriage, and our new family aka… the dogs. For those of you who roll your eyes at how I am with my dogs…keep rolling cause they are still my babies! It has been fun adding Eric’s Pit-mix to my little fur balls. Their personalities are so funny and they make us laugh. I will admit, this transition to Idaho has been harder for me than for Eric, but as I reflect and think about life here, there are so many things I appreciate and love. I am excited to see what the next year has in store for us.

Most Importantly, Christmas is about family, love, giving, and above all, our Savior Jesus Christ. We hope as the season comes and goes, you continue to reflect and focus upon those “Tender Mercies” and “Miracles” which flood our lives. May we all remember the ‘June flowers in the December of our lives’ and face each new day with faith and courage, remembering the sacrifice & Love of our Savior!

Happy Holidays, and please know WE LOVE YOU!
Eric, Alisha, Drake, Chuy and Barkley
Disclaimer: The dogs in the picture…My idea. Eric- “It’s Ridiculous!”

A little of this.....and that....

2009-12-14T18:16:00.000-08:00

Meet kameron. He is just flat goofy. and getting into trouble. Latest funny....he threw a library book in the toilet. Why? His friend dared him. Next....he picks on others through writing comics. Who does that????? Soooo cute. But he is reminding me of someone......

Here is Eric, admiring his new phone once again:)

My sisters playing Sleigh Ride, and their loves, attempting to turn the pages for them. it was fun at thanksgiving. Seeing family. having fun.

Meet Dorothy. My sister's Mother-in-law. She has been so wonderful to all of us kids, and grandkids. Not to mention her cooking is Awesome!!!!

This is a commong site whenever Eric is around my nieces and nephews. This is the product of Korey, sneaking around the back of the chair to scare Eric....and of course, getting busted....Just like he Loves! They really do love "that boy in the blue hat!" (Aka Eric)

I was very glad to get to go home for Thanksgiving. it did me good! miss you AZ! and Miss you all my friends and family!

Happy 29th Birthday Eric!

2009-11-16T17:04:00.000-08:00

Eric had his 29th birthday a coulel days ago. Not a huge celebration, but hopefully enough for now. :) He got his present earlier in the week, the new Verizon "Droid" phone. He says he loves it. I hope so. This is a picture from the summertime. I just think he is sooooo cute, so I had to share it in honor of his day.

Sunday night, for his birthday, we had some new friends come over for dinner and dessert. Ethan, Emily and their son Silas. Here are a couple pics. This is Silas and me, and I just got a kick out of his reaction to me picking him up. What a cutie. It made me miss my little guys in AZ. I'll get to see them next week:)

This is Emily with Silas. Such a hoot! We had a good time just hanging out, talking, watching some TV/movie, playing with Trains, dogs....and laughing. We are so glad to have finally met these guys. They live just down the street, and that is nice. They are so nice and so fun. Whenever we hang out, we just laugh and laugh. Thanks for coming over guys!

Posted backward, but here's the last picture.....

2009-11-13T00:40:00.000-08:00

Here is the one picture Michael took of just us. and I know he had to do major touch ups, cause it was beginning the down pour. It was fun. Thanks Michael for fitting us into your schedule. I always LOVE seeing you. So, what ya'll think. Dogs? No dogs?

another one.....

2009-11-12T21:55:00.000-08:00

Here is another one. Love the black dog in this pic. He is such a big baby. Too bad people are scared of him. Ok.....maybe the dogs are too much. BUT-They are my 'family.' I loves them to pieces. :) lol

hahahaha....."our" family picture.

2009-11-12T21:40:00.000-08:00

So.....In Eric's words, it's "Ridiculous" we have the dogs in the picture. Of course, I say anyone who knows me, and my dogs....can see why. But the story is.....We had my cousin Michael take some pictures of us. Well, we got to his 'spot' and were there literally 6 minutes (ok, maybe 7) and it started down pouring. The plan was to take a bunch with the dogs, and then more with just Eric and I. In the end, sadly, we only got like 4 pics that even turned out, and that was with the help of Photoshop......Thought I'd post them. What do you think. Too cheesy to use a pic with the dogs in it for a Christmas card?

Another trip to Vernal

2009-11-01T18:27:00.000-08:00

Last weekend, Eric and I.....headed to utah for the wedding of my cousin Mike. The wedding was awesome and fun. I'm so happy for them.

After that....we headed out to Eric's mom's place.....where we totally just relaxed, played games, ate good food, and ended the trip with my favorite. Riding horses.

this is Marie, Eric's mom, me, and Dustin. We only had a little while, due to Dustin working nights, so we just rode around in the arena. No problem for me. Just happy to be riding. It has been way too long.
Say Cheese!

Dustin the show Off. Was really riding around like this. Ok, not that far, but it was funny.

Eric didn't ride, cause he had a bad dream he got bucked off, and broke some bones.....so he opted to stay off the horses this trip. I was sad.....but can't imagine if his dream HAD come true. Noone could do his work....and the potential to lose dentists....Anyway. Good times regardless.

Happy Birthday Mom!

2009-10-05T19:56:00.000-07:00

I didn't really have time to download any other pics...so sorry, these have already been posted!

Well......today I went over to a friends house to get something. This friend, is recently expecting, and her mom was here to spend a week helping prepare the nursey and decorate things in preparation for the baby. It was fun to see them sewing their brains out with blankets, and bumpers, and everything else. It made me happy. then it made me sad. Really.....It just made me long for my mom......

Normally.....I do okay. I don't linger on and on and wallow in the sadness. but I have found the more years go by....the harder it is....

I am sorry for you readers, who continue to read these posts about my parents. But that is life! It's my blog....and I get to write what I want! :)

Anyway....Yesterda was my mom's birthday. So, I just wanted to wish her a

Happy Birthday!

What I wanted to do, is ask for those of you readers who knew my mom..... to leave a comment....and tell me a random memory you may have of her. I anticipate comments about her laughter, or her Chapstick hiding place......so please share! I'm anxious to hear how others knew her:)

Thanks for the memories in advance!

Mountain Biking at Bogus

2009-09-21T13:25:00.000-07:00

My sister came to visit this past weekend. It was too short of a visit, but it was fun none-the-less. We headed up to the local ski resort and did some mountain biking. paid to have the lift take our bikes to the top....and cruised on down. Good times.

Here is Angie....almost down one of the trails we went down.
We rode up this one trail that had an awesome view. plus an awesome drop off. I was scared. I hate heights!

bottom of the hill.

Eric was in heaven out mountain biking. We slowed him down a lot. but he was a good sport.

It was nice having another visitor. The first from my side of the family. (hint....hint) Thanks for coming Angie!

I remembered something.....

2009-09-11T09:07:00.000-07:00

I remembered something the other day. It was important. It took me back a few years....to when I decided I would pursue being a nurse. Usually I spend the days (and nights) on my new floor, running around staying exhaustingly busy, completing task after task, talking to doctors, ordering meals, getting patients up, putting patients back to bed, administering medications, titrating medications to keep vital signs in just the right range, checking blood sugars every hour, on the hour, talking to families, turning patients side to side, checking skin, running back and forth room to room, boosting patients, answering the phone, going to procedures, providing oral hygiene, pulling blood, giving blood, hanging more medications.....the list goes on and on including the crazy amount of manditory documentation in 9 different places. it's crazy. but.....the other day, I remembered why I loved my job.

Humility. Gratitude. Love.

It keeps you, and in "you" i definitely mean "me"---Humble and grateful for every breath and for health and especially for life. Life is so so precious....and no matter the technology, no matter the Doctor's smarts, no matter the nurses' help, God is in charge. People come into our hospital all the time, never with the slightest inckling....that their loved one will not leave alive. How sad and.....awful it is to watch those couples. You know which ones. The ones who have been together so long, that they don't know life without them. They don't know 'how' to live without the other. The ones where the patient can't even be calm without their spouse by their side. The ones that just touch your heart. The ones that just break you heart. The ones who try so hard to be strong...and supportive....and hold it together, as they try their hardest to let their loved one "go."

In the last two weeks I have had tears in my eyes as I've watched a few different patients and families struggle through their turmoil of 'sickness.' It not only took me back to my own parents, wondering how it was for my mom as my dad slipped through her hands and landed in the realms of heaven. Or how it was for my mom, to struggle with letting go and find herself with her sweetheart, only to leave us kids behind. Oh to know what went on inside my parents. I cannot wait to find out one day why our family.

It also makes me wonder about the future. With all the struggles and trials in losing both parents so early......I can't help but worry, knowing this can't be the end of my trials, nor the hardest. Or could it? After these experiences, what else could there be? Will I make it....to be one of the sweet couples who gets to experience a long long life with my sweetheart? I hope so.

It all ties back to the Gospel. And the knowledge of forever families! Thank goodness for that. And thank goodness for choices. The choice to be happy....the choice to keep going...the choice to try and do good for others.

Today....I remember why I love my job! It is important. It is real. It reminds me......about the good!

Yellowstone stop over.....

2009-09-10T15:00:00.001-07:00

The family picture near the end of a day's adventure through Yellowston andon our way to jackson Hole. Robert, Lynette, me, Eric, Scott, Kobe, Spencer, Abbey, Kendra and Dustin. Missing Daren who is on a mission, and Scott's wife Amanda who had to work. Good good times this day. Thanks Robert! And Lynette!

Kobe and Abbey are the most adorable and such good kids.
This is our lunch break, while we wait for Old Faithful to brew.

Robert and Lynette by the awesome Mesa Falls.

This is so dang beautiful!

the only animals we saw through the park, were Buffalo and Elk. Nothing too exciting about Elk,,,and this was ok. I was hoping for Moose, but no luck.

This is the bear/wolve place. it was cool.

Sweet Abbey

First stop. Mesa falls. Silly picture. No makeup, and sleepy face.

Good times!

....I may not make it....

2009-08-12T01:26:00.000-07:00

....according to my most recent patient. :)

Ok. So, I am at work tonight, and I have what appears to be the sweetest lady as my patient. Well, She is sweet. However, I had been previously warned this patient was particularly racist and had been kind of a pain to everyone throughout the day. According to the patient, "Everyone should be protestant and white!"

Well, I went in, introduced myself, and told her I was going to be taking care of her throughout the night. Immediately she asked if my name, "Alisha" was a Bask name. (Bask name?) Ok, so I am not all that smart-cause at first of all, I couldn't even hear what she was saying. Second, I had no idea what she was talking about. It was not until later it all came together and I was educated on what she was getting at. So, at the time I told her I didn't think so, and she proceeded to tell me my name was pretty.

She continued to ask questions, to try and get acquainted with me, The usual. Almost anyone working in health care would admit; sometimes, it's just easier to keep the peace. One tends to do what you can to make it a calm and cooperative and quiet shift. Omit certain truths, avoid answerine some questions, whatever it takes without going overboard.

So she asks if I'm catholic. "No". She asks if my parents were Catholic. "No," I tell her they had both passed on. (my attempt at changing the subject shockingly as to avoid her favorite topic of religion.) I also asked her if she was CAtholic. She told me no and what she is. We chat about my folks, and she continues to compliment me all sweet. I now call her my "chatty Patty."

Time passed and I walk in about an hour later to give some IV medication. SHe immediately grabbed my hand and held it tight. I just assumed she didn't want to be alone, & needed some company while she fell asleep. Afterall her eyes were closed. I watched her face and soon realized her mouth was moving. It took just a minute, but I finally figured out she was praying. Weird kinda, but ok. So, I figured I'd just stand there, let her pray.

The prayer in which she offered, goes something as follows. (The parts I remember.) Half of it is mumbled under her breath, the other half split between spoken, cried, and yelled....

"Lord, thank you. thank you Lord. (repeated at least 6 times.) Thank you for this sweet nurse. Thank you.... and bless her Lord. Bless the girl to meet her sweet parents one day Lord. I know the day is near Lord. Thank you. The day is near and bless she will see her parents again. It is 1912---(pause---what?????) and we know the day is near Lord. The Lord is coming soon. I had a dream. I dreamed we were all at my brothers bed Lord, and all the family was gathered round. All except one brother. One brother Lord. And he was LDS and so we know he didn't make it. Oh bless him Lord. I need to pray for him Lord. Oh Bless him, bless he and his wife, for they were LDS and we know they didn't make it. Oh bless them. I have to pray for them...." Multiple phrases repeated over and over and over. At this point, she is loud! Crying out, and speaking in tongues amist the bless and thank yous, words I could hear, but not understand. I could swear she was saying Hakuna Matata. Who knows.

Here's the picture. So, here I am, in this room with this patient who is pregressively getting louder, and louder, and more emotional and teary, and upset and really into it. And her blood pressure is climbing and climbing...and her heart rate is climbing and climbing....and alarms are ringing, and more alarms are ringing....and I'm standing there...and people are looking in.....and I am standing there, holding her hand and she is loudly praying. I have no control.

Finally I put my hand on her arm, trying to comfort and calm her....and she gets irritated because she doesn't "CARE about her blood pressure cause Jesus will take care of it." Ah!

Ok....so, moral of the story? I don't guess I have one. It was just and interesting conversational/prayer-ish/experience. Thought i'd just warn you LDS-folks. :) We just might not make it.
Funny thing is-never at any point did I mention or even slightly hint at my religion. Wierd.

Old pictures of family.

2009-08-07T15:59:00.000-07:00

My cousin Brandy posted some of these pics on facebook, and so I stole them to post on here. I love them. It makes me wish more adults were alive and close in my life to re-tell me the stories I've already heard and forgotten, and also to tell me the ones I haven't heard. This picture is of my dad's parents, apparently gardening. They were cool like that. From my understanding, between the two of them, there was not much they did not know how to do. My favorite of granny (or one of the many) is the fact she used to be a cook at a restaurant where they lived, and John Wayne used to eat there often, and preffered her cooking. She was an AMAZING cook. How cool is that. My granny used to chill with Mr. Wayne back in the day....

Oh man....who knows how old this picture is. They look so young and my dad still has black hair. I don't remember him having black hair in my lifetime. Always salt and pepper ish.

This I love. I actually remember this trip. As a family, and usually with the addition of many friends, we took a trip to Rocky Point Mexico nearly every year. This is way back before it actually became all popular and fixed up. This is aunt Wilda and mom gettin some rays. Who are they joking...well, at least my mom anyway was about as white as they come. She didn't get too tan. :) Apparently my mom was an awesome swimmer. I just remember her always heading out into the ocean to tread water forever...and it always made me soooo nervous.

I just love this picture....cause grampy looks so young.

And I just love this picture because. It's so random! My dad was usually very quiet, calm, laid back. I just love the fun pics. I love remembering. well,,,,,trying to remember more about him. It has been 13 years this year...and I have to sadly admit that I don't remember what it was like to have him around. Sure I remember doing things...and how he was...and random things. But, I do not remember what it's like, in daily life to have a dad. And....remembering what it's like to have a mom is quickly fading in my mind. It's crazy to think....that my spouse never met my cool folks....but that I may have kids.....who won't meet them either.

Anyway....thanks for the pics Brand-ex:) I may need more:)

Zion National Park

2009-07-27T17:06:00.000-07:00

This year, we had a reunion for my mom's side of the family. The Bowers!

The last time i remember us all being together, well besides for grandma bowers funeral, then my mom's funeral, was way back when I was 13-14 years old. We just don't get together that often. It was great. We stayed at Zion Ponderosa some camped, some stayed in their travel trailers, some camped with tents....and it was awesome. they had a big nice pool with fun water slides and a huge barn full of kid activities: Ping pong, rock climbinb, tennis, trampoline, pool, etc. It was great.

We spend one day actually at Zion park. Only took a small hike to the weeping wall. So this huge rock just leaks water pretty much. The water is years and years and years old. Crazy. It was a nice cool off to a hot day. On the way home, i took this picture of Korey, who was SOOOO tired and SOOO fighting it. I finally caught his eyes closed, but they popped right back open...

this.....is just a family thing. there are many pics in the history of our family....with our tongues touching our noses. I thought everyone could do it. Tis not so! Try it.

So.....this picture is....
Leisel-representing my mom
Cynthis-representing uncle Ken, although they been divorced for years, she is and will always be our family
Dave and Linda Su-mom's oldest brother
Susie and Lynn-mom's baby sister
then John and Judy-mom's bro
and Bob and Pat-mom's bro

It was so hot, and Eric tried to be happy following around this strange family to him :) No matter where he went, he always ended up surrounded by our nieces and nephews.

At the pool, he would take turns, sliding down with the kids standing in front of him, and when they got to the edge, he would throw them out into the water. Good times. Looked way fun and kinda hard.

It was great to see family. Of course, it didn't go without 'issues' but what family function does. Love my family. Will see them in TWO years:) for Grandpa Bowers 100th birthday remembrance/celebration.

Lake lowell- i think.

2009-07-27T16:51:00.000-07:00

Eric's partner, Sean, and his wife Tina took Eric and I, and Andy and Jen to the lake a couple weeks ago. I was reluctant to go....only because I'm always tired now-a-days, but it was a blast! There was wake boarding, Knee boarding, some tubing. I'm not too good at all. But it was fun. Here is Eric trying to do the sprinkler move just before he crashed.

Looking silly, but having a blast.

Eric again....wanting to do more than just go forward. I.e-jump, spin, roll, dive....whatever.

Here is Sean and one of his jumps.

I think the jacket was a bit......loose.:)

Good times. Thanks Sean and Tina for an awesome time. Gotta say, I hope we go again before it gets cold. Afterwards there was yummy pizza and a mad rockband session! Couldn't ask for more.

4th of July....part I

2009-07-14T01:11:00.000-07:00

Part one of the 4th of July trip, did have the class reunion. Afterwards, I decided to go keep Laura and Clare and their husbands and other friends company at Java Blues! Good Good times. People say the darndest things with the littlest of alcohol in their system. VERY entertaining.

This is Connie Slade (forgot her new last name) with her daughter Angela and my sister Angie with Cimmeron. I cannot believe how much he has grown. He hates when we tease him, but it completely trips me out that his voice has changed. He is no-longer little CJ. But my little buddy, none the less. Love this kid.
Zoe and Ali, doing a bunch of different faces for me. This was the angry face. These girls are Girls through and through. Love it.

Zoe is into posing. So this is us together after her family's photo shoot.

Another one of cimmeron and me. Look how close he is to totally passing me. This is NOT Allowed!

The Kam! So dramatic sometimes. Refusing to smile for a picture with his mom.

Tom, Marnie and "Little Man." Also known as Korey.

this is all the nieces and nephews, minus Cimmeron and Jonathan....oh, and Kristina (the brand new baby.) Gonna have to get used to saying 13 nieces and nephews. Not just 12. Ok, from back left curving around the table to the front... Zachary, Kameron, Korey, Kaulin, Ali, Catherin, Samantha, Zoe, and Jessica. Wait, that means I'm missing Keilani too. I think she was in the bedroom playing.

This little turkey, has not warmed up to me yet at all. But once he saw me with a camera, he kept wanting pictures taken of him on his horses. I told him to make a silly face for me. This is what I got:)

This trip home was much needed. Feeling so detached and far away from my family has been much harder than I thought, as well as harder than i wanna admit. It was awesome seeing friends too. I was extra happy to come back to see Eric and my little 'family' of dogs. Something about the trip helped me gain a little perspective and that I appreciate.

4th of July trip....part II

2009-07-14T00:48:00.000-07:00

Sorry, but I'm gonna post a lot of pics from my trips over the 4th. I was able to go to Arizona for my 10-year class reunion, and to see my all my little nieces and nephews....and then I was able to fly up to Montana to meet Eric for his mom's side family reunion. We stayed at a place called seeley lake, and camped. It was awesome! So pretty. It was warm in the sun, and chili in the clouds. The summer high was in the 60's. It was awesome. One of the days, most of the family took a hike up to a really pretty waterfall. Eric and I decided to ride our bikes instead. Thank goodness for that. I didn't feel like hiking 3.1 or so miles one way. That just takes too long.

Once we got to the waterfall, there was a place to hike up to see other waterfalls. I HATE heights...so it was difficult for me, but Eric just kept going and going.....

Here is Eric and some of his cousins....

Before the trek up to find the hidden falls...

One of the pretty lakes in the area.

Our stop to take the picture. Not a great pic, especially of me, but it was a good time together.

Me, keeping as far away from the edge of the top of the first fall.

And of Course, Eric, out IN the falls....It's only a 400ft drop right behind him.

Here is the actual first fall.

Adopt-a-highway

2009-06-25T10:19:00.000-07:00

Ok, How strange would it be to be driving down the road, and you happen to glance up and see an adopt a highway sign with your dad's name on it. It's not near where he lived, you know nobody in YOUR family did it.....You shake your head, and end up pausing your trip, to stop the car, turn around, and go back to make sure it was the correct name.

Yep! Joe Madrid!

That would be my daddy! and the story happened to my sister, not me. I just think it's funny. Somebody, though not exactly sure who, but some have their guesses, put this up in memory of my dad. How sweet is that. Angie and Cimmeron first noticed it last year, and then a few weeks ago marnie and her gang passed it and decided to take pics.

Thanks marn. I just think it's neat. The two cuties are Korey, aka "Little Man" and Keilani.

More house and entertainment center.

2009-06-17T08:49:00.000-07:00

This post is mostly for Marnie...who told me to post pics of our house. I reminded her i had, but oh well. this is my awesome attempts at flowers. I definitely lack 'green thumb' skills!

The front of our house driving up the road!
The back is pretty darn plain.

The latest wall decor.

Here's the hallway from the front door. (which is on the right, just outside the photo.)

Below are two 'before' pics. This entertainment center Eric made. He finally finished it this weekend. you can't see that easily, but he painted it black, then he distressed it this weekend, and put clear coats on. It turned out awesome! he is so talented. Love it!

This is the other direction, where the shadow box is now on the right, and the wedding pics are on the left.

This is the center after just the black paint. Looks WAY better now!

TODAY's.......tomorrow.

2009-06-10T16:01:00.000-07:00

Today….
This week has been a week of reflection. Tomorrow is the 4-year mark of mom’s passing. With that I have had many thoughts, and some emotion. I know last year I also posted about mom and dad….and I will most likely continue to post about them every year, because every year I seem to appreciate them and miss them all the more. I’m beginning to believe in the phrase, “Time wounds all Heals!” :) I am certain this will be a long post, so if you don’t wanna get sucked in….stop here. Enjoy some random pictures. I realize the quality of many is not great…but it’s what I have.

Today…I remember Grandma Karen, or for me, “mom”.
Today…I think back on many memories I carry with me, wishing they were not final, but alas, they are and so I cherish them.

Today…I remember all the trouble I caused, and the many, Oh so many times she came flying through the front door after learning from her secret spies at school what I had done ‘that’ day.
Today…I remember the breakfasts and dinners she would prepare, not to mention my favorite- requested every year chocolate birthday cake!
Today…I tremendously miss her cooking and baking and treats-and wish for more of those moments.
Today…I remember the support she always rendered in my many activities. From Show Choir to Volleyball to Basketball, to plays. She never missed anything if she could help it.
Today…I remember holiday decorations and traditions. She always made our house so cozy. And no holiday has EVER been the same without her.
Today…I wish I had taken more notes on her creativity! The woman never ran out of ideas. I never seem to find them.

Today…I long for her bursting contagious laugh.
Today…I miss church, and her solo giggles...then looking at the Hamblin’s, just to see their faces, especially Lee’s face beat red from laughing at her. (with her) :)
Today…I remember learning of my father’s cancer, and my mother’s strength in carrying on although she herself felt ill.
Today…I remember the trips home from college and each time there was something different in the house. She was always making things better in our old house.
Today…I remember a birthday trip home from college, when I brought a bunch of friends to go skiing. She had the house spotless, awesome Christmas decorations and beds ready all over the house for each guest.
Today…I remember Her own diagnosis with Cancer, and once again her strength as she fought back with surgeries and radioactive treatments for years.
Today…I remember her last years as she had valleys and peaks with her health-yet just kept smiling and just kept going.
Today…I remember my last Christmas with her, KNOWING it was our last, only to be surprised that the day after Christmas events would start the down-hill spiral to her final days.
Today…I remember the beginning of a trip to mesa with my nephew Kameron, and getting a phone call from my sister that mom had fallen and broken her hip.
Today…I remember being flooded with tears, then drying them quickly so kameron would be calm.
Today…I remember Kameron telling on me for shedding those tears. :)

(This pic is shortly after the hip fracture....in the Hospice house.)

(This is from decades ago, when they visited the polynesian cultural center in hawaii.)

(And this is visiting the PCC when she came to Hawaii for my graduation. Still the same fun lady!)

(This is from her visit to my graduation as well. We're at windy point.)

Today…I remember that night in the Springerville hospital, and the stupid events that took place. Scott being kicked out of the ER for asking the MD for pain medication for mom, and the MD being completely inappropriate.
Today…I remember I was threatened to be thrown out of said hospital, with police escort.
Today…I remember Marnie being the only one who could keep her cool and communicate with the incompetent staff that night. She is “mom” in every way possible.
Today…I remember aunt Wilda and Grandma Neita racing the wheel chairs up the hallway of that same hospital!
Today…I remember the brief airplane ride down to the Mayo Clinic…where we learned the true extent of this hip break. Did the fall cause the break? Or did the cancer, which had eaten the bone, cause the weakness, that caused the fall, which ended in the break, which couldn’t be repaired due to the non-existing bone, due to the cancer.

Today...I remember going over options for mom after this episode.
Today…I remember finally taking mom to Angie’s house so we could be the ones to care for her.
Today…I remember the selflessness of my oldest sister Angie, whom I’m afraid has never been adequately thanked.

(Just a fun picture I sent mom when I was attending BYU-H.)

Today…I remember the opportunity of caring for mom. From the days of Hawaii, I KNEW, she would be ‘crippled’ before she passed, and that it was my duty. I needed to be the caregiver. (one of the many.)
Today…I remember a sweet grandchild, Cimmeron, who brought so much joy to her life everyday. As did all her grandchildren. He was the lucky one who got to see her everyday!
Today…I remember mom yelling at Cimm from the other room as he practiced piano, to fix the wrong notes, just as she did to me…and all my sisters I’m certain. We laughed!
Today…I remember the years mom spent changing, and stopping her little habit of swearing.
Today…I remember the last time I heard her say Sh**, as she accidently dumped water all over her table and nightgown.
Today…I realize some habits die hard!

Today...I remember mom trying to dial the remote control to make a phone call. :) Technology these days! :)
Today…I remember taking her home to Eagar. A gift from Jason and Tim Eagar…and Neita. They drove to the valley in their van, put a recliner in the back, loaded her up and off we went. Neita kept her company in the Van, and I followed close behind for any needs that should arise.
Today…I remember finally getting back to her own home, and saw how glad she was.
Today…I remember the MANY visitors and friends who offered such service and love to mom through those last months. She was blessed with friendships!
Today…I remember mom being pushed in her wheelchair by Neita up to Bashas to buy Ice-cream. (our favorite food group.) -though we had 4 or 5 different types in our freezer! Who could tell her that.

Today...I remember mom using Bill Franks motored scooter...and us almost getting caught in the middle of main street due to a little mal function.
Today…I remember mom wanting to be pushed down to the bank to see Scott.
Today…I remember dad, having Jr. drive him around town in his last days, until he found where Scott was working for the day, where they sat and watched him.
Today…I remember mom asking “if Scott would be embarrassed.” I assured her No. Hopefully I was right.
Today…I remember making my bed on the floor, by mom’s bed each night as it got dark. She didn’t want to be alone. I didn’t blame her.

Today…I remember that each night, I would read to her one, two or three talks from the latest General Conference ensign. She loved the gospel more than anything, and it ALWAYS brought her such comfort.

Today...I remember Tracy as the back-up. Always ready to come at a phone call. I took a shower one morning, and got out to Tracy there, helping mom. Apparently she got nervous by herself for a few minutes.
Today…I remember my siblings and their effort to visit at every opportunity. Angie, Cimm and I there daily. Leisel and her kid’s daily visits and meals. Her one-on-one time with mom to quickly get stories recorded for each child. Marnie came with her kids, as often as she could. And Scott drove down from Eagar every weekend. Nothing brought mom more happiness than her family.
Today…I remember our disparity, to take away mom’s pain.
Today…I remember Kissing mom good-bye to go start nursing school. The 2 phone calls that I received the following week, from a weak and tired lady who wanted to say hi and check in! She wasn't quite all there...but her intentions were pure.
Today…I remember the phone call to tell of her final breaths. I hadn’t wanted to be there. But I quickly regretted it.
Today…I realize that time will not heal the hole left behind when you lose your parents. It merely dulls the sting.
Today…I wish I had spent more time appreciating and loving and living every moment I could with my parents those many years ago.

Today...I realize regret gets us no-where.

Today...I realize that though I feel somewhat shorted, there is NO DOUBT in my mind there is a reason for EVERYTHING.

Today...I realize one day everything will be oh so clear! the hurt will only be worth it.
Today…I wish my Love Eric had the opportunity to meet some great in-laws, and know of their love and get to know their awesome personalities.

TODAY...I miss my parents!

Love you Mom and Dad!

Meet the Zweifel/Smuin side.....

2009-05-31T17:20:00.000-07:00

Looks like these ladies are getting all snookered up at the reception.

Eric's brother Scott got married in April. This is the luncheon after the wedding.

This is Scott (Eric's brother) and Amanda, the newly weds cutting their cake.
They then had a reception in Vernal. They had a pretty 'neat' style goin. Eric got to wear this sweet hat. I know the name of it....but can't for the life of me spell it...so, for this purpose...it's a hat. Plane and simple.

Eric's only niece and nephew so far. Kobe and Abbey! And they are adorable. Kobe is the smartest little guy ever! and that little sister is sneaky!

This is Eric's dad, and his date Lynette. I think if they break up we'll keep her and kick him out! :) Just kidding.....but they are a fun fun couple.

And this is Eric's mom Marie and her husband Kay Smuin with the grandkids for his side. Good times had at the Smuin house! Talk about a mean game of Mexican Train!

Kinda blurry....but here is Eric, kenneth and Dustin. The brothers, Minus one who is on his mission, Darren!

And of course one last pic of us! I just love this guy! How Lucky I am he found me! Love you tons babe!

More Dogs!

2009-05-05T12:16:00.000-07:00

Yup! Another post about my awesome dogs. They are so fun on a day to day basis,,,,that I couldn't possibly describe that on a blog. So, I'm just gonna post pics to make myself feel better. They are my little family!:) As dumb as that may sound! Drake-has managed to petrify any-and-everyone who comes over. Where he is the biggest baby to us, he is definitely on the protective side, especially to those who have any fear of dogs.

This little guys dirty sweet face looks like an e-walk(spelling anyone?) He is always into, onto, in the middle of trouble, but is the biggest cuddler and loves attention. It's not nice to say he's my "not so intelligent" boy, but he is sooooo sweet and cute he makes up for it.

THis is the same guy, after walking around in the freshly mowed yard, and staining his paws green. Just another bath!

Here is my #1. Chuy was my first pup. He is the intelligent one, who only likes to cuddle on his conditions, in his time, in his way. LOVE LOVE LOVE him!!!

Both of these little guys LOVE to sit up on my lap. THey fight for it. So this day, Eric and I were just sitting at the table, chatting, and up came one.....then the other....and trust me, there was not enough room, they were not comfortable, but neither would get down. They just layed their heads on the table like the world was perfect!

Perhaps what made me post this, was the fact that another pretty special dog, (Grandma Neita's Cassie-for those of you that knew that dog) got hit in Eagar this past week. I remember after my mom died, when I would go to Eagar, I would end up over at Neita's house, sitting on the front porch, chatting and letting our dogs play. Sounds so little.....but when special people start leaving your life, you tend to find the tinyest moments that mean something to you, and hold on to them forever! I cried immediately when I heard about Cassie....like she was my own dog. But, she is with grandma neita now. And that's comforting!

Gift from Mom.

2009-05-05T12:10:00.000-07:00

So, I wanted to post this....and show off the last gift from my mom. I have had it with me, but it has been put away, not to be pulled out until I got married. Well, then I got married and somewhat forgot about it. This is a blanket she and some awesome ladies up in RV had quilted for me for when I got married. I wish the picture could do it justice. I just love it! The detail....and colors. And I love it because it was from my mother of course! I really miss her!

Riding Horses

2009-04-23T10:58:00.000-07:00

Meet Muddy!

This is my first riding experience at Eric's parents. His mom has like 30 some odd horses...and I had been looking forward to riding all weekend, but of course, we took the bad weather with us. It was absolutely beautiful our last day there....which we had to pack and leave, so a day of slight winds and sprinkles was the best we got. I LOVE LOVE LOVED it. Anyone who knows me, knows how obsessed with horses I was for many years when I was young.

My cute boys. This darned dog is the biggest baby....but is so totally scary to others....he scares everyone with his growls, barks and stares. He's our little security system at home:)

This is Dustin, Eric's brother who just got off his mission. 23, single....(awaiting some blind dates:) so if anyone knows anyone in the utah area...he is one cute tall drink of water....) He is a cowboy/horse whisperer to the core. He was the one to catch the horses, saddle and be the first one on them (given, only 2 or 3 had been ridden in months) to make sure they were 'ridable.' Poor guy, I felt like he was pulled in 12 directions at once trying to get enough ridable horses and saddles for 7 of us....thanks Dusty!

I ended up switching to this fiesty gal, peanut! She was quite fun. I kept wanting a 'not so tame' horse, and I got it,,,,though I must admit I got quite nervous when we climbed even the slightest hill.....(I blame that on grandpa Maughn who had told a story about one of his horses falling off a cliff, tumbling end over end for 100's of feet...and living through it.) Ok, so we only climbed 8ft max, but I'm afraid of heights. Baby.....

And this is grandpa Maughn! This man has the most amazing stories...(minus the ones about the horse falling.) He's not a young pup, but totally takes care of himself and lives like he is. Love those type. I felt super bad, cause I'm just certain he heard the few swear words that rolled off my tongue at the horse when she was being stupid. OOPS!

Life after I do....

2009-04-05T13:33:00.000-07:00

I keep hearing, "how's married life?" so I thought I'd post a small update. How is married life? Awesome! It is awesome being able to see him every day...and not have to worry about when I can see him, or when he has to leave, or when.....whatever. It's nice just knowing we can relax. We have had some fun in rearranging things to get him settled into 'our' place and organizing our closet....and starting to fix the front yard....and me learning how to make food for both of us. I think it still floors me how much food them males can eat. And he is wonderfully patient with my complete incompetence in the kitchen. I do remember my mom often calling me into the kitchen at home, attempting to teach me a thing or two....but I definitely was not interested at that time....nor for many years after. Boy am I feeling the after pains of that dumb-ness.

Whitecap Dental Studio is doing fairly well. Actually really well. I just hesitate in saying so for fear of my bad luck and jinxing it. They are growing with each month and I think working into a sort of system that works for them. There is still a lot to learn and do, but they are working it out. At least, that is how it appears.

The intensive care unit (my job) is going better. It is still pretty crazy. I fear everyday that I will make some small minute mistake or miss a small subtle change in someone, which will backfire and harm them in some way...but I am learning that feeling is just the nature of the beast. I am becoming a tiny bit more comfortable with the extra equipment and interpretation, etc. I guess maybe by the end of the month I may be out on my own to find my own comfort zone. Can't wait.

I did send out thank you cards to some....but if I missed anyone, THANK YOU!!!! and for those of you who have wished us happy thoughts, and left message, I thank you all so much for your support and friendship. Things are going great and I'm excited for what's ahead.

PS- It's true. When you're not married, the question is, "when ya gonna get married." Then you get married and it's, "when you gonna have kids." Answer: Not yet. Maybe in a year we'll start toying with the idea. FYI-incase anyone else is curious. :)

....And more pictures. I just love re-living this day!

2009-03-21T11:27:00.000-07:00

Here is a picture of our rings. I had a nephew be the ring bearer....but he got a little shy in the end. He made it down the isle after some bribery....Then the bow went into a knot and Eric had a hard time getting the rings off the pillow.

I was so nervous walking down stairs in flip flops and that dress. My shoe only got caught on the dress once...and hopefully noone noticed the minor fumble. I was SOOOO nervous....

The ceremony was incredible. Matt wrote it to fit our story, and Debbie, the minister delivered it perfectly. We were very happy.

Another view of my awesome bouquet. Renatta at Seville basically asked what I liked, got a very little feel for my ideas...and then just made it beautiful. Simple, but so so elegant. Couldn't have asked for more! (I keep saying that,,,,but I mean it!)

I noticed in the pics, after the fact, My sweet niece Jessica was trying to give us her 'gift'....the sweetest drawing of Eric and I....and the poor doll just didn't get the chance with how busy we were rushing here and there. Thank you Jessie!

Ok.....so, we had a really hard time picking music for this wedding. Had to choose a song for walking down the isle.....(We chose a Yanni song, Felista.) Then we had to choose a song for leaving after being married, a grand entrance to the reception song, and a first dance song.

We debated and debated....and for leaving the ceremony we finally decided to choose the Marvin Gaye song, "Let's get it On." Most likely inappropriate....but absolutely our style and very hillarious. This picture is us, watching the disbelief spread across the face of our photographer, matt, as he realized what song was playing...and was about to come unglued at the DJ. (ok, probably not unglued, but the disbelief was awesome.)

Absolutely LOVE these girls. It's so nice to have friend who can and will drop anything and everything to support you on a dime. I understand, some can't, but would....but Each one of them has a special place in my heart. Laura, (farthest your right) came all the way from Hershey Pennsylvania) and brought awesome candybars wrapped with a picture of Eric and I, and a thank you to our guests. I'll post a pic later.

That was only a portion of what she took into her hands to do for me this weekend. You couldn't ask for better friends. And Alicia for helping fix the hair, nails,,,,,and at the last minute grabbing a guest book for us. Love Love LOVE these girls! Thanks for being so great!

From Left to right, the amazing talent and awesome friends who made this wedding possible, Dani and Matt, (Eric and I) and then Amy and Ryan-two more awesome friends of Eric's (mine too:) ) Amy and Ryan to be hitched in April. So excited for these two.

Matt and Ryan tore up the dance floor....and here, Matt just couldn't keep his hands of Eric's Bum! Good times!

If anyone is ever in need of a most awesome photographer, please check out this website.

http://www.stilllifestudios.com/

You won't be disappointed.

bottom line: this day will replay in my mind forever. The great friendships, the support and love of family....the fun we had with the kids and adults....I now realize why this day is so important. And to think I was ready to elope. So glad I didn't. And I am so thankful to all you who have been congratulating and supporting us. It really means a lot to us.

More of the Big Day!

2009-03-19T15:59:00.000-07:00

Just a few more pictures of the big day. This is our first dance....Wish you could see my dress up close. The train was beautiful! But I am a little partial.

I absolutely LOVED my boquet! The ladies to put it together were awesome with all the decorations and everything. It was wonderful!
I just love this picture!

Gettin Hitched!

2009-03-16T08:31:00.000-07:00

WE DID IT!

Eric and I finally got married! It's true....the planning and event came and went in a real quick hurry, and it was small. But it was perfect! Here are just a few pictures that I have scavenged.....still awaiting the 'real ones.' I decided I hated my hair, but the day was so awesome I forgot til I looked at some pictures:) These are small pics. I will definitely post more when I actually have something to post with it. Just wanted to say I am finally Mrs. Zweifel!

How do I Really like Idaho????

2009-02-26T12:02:00.000-08:00

I hear this question a LOT, and looking out the window watching it hail this morning....made me really wonder. I try to be as optimistic as possible and focus on the really great things about this place. I really like getting to wear jackets and sweaters and sweatshirts and socks and shoes. After living in Thatcher, then Hawaii, then the Valley and Tucson, I was so ready to get out of the heat and away from sweating my brains out. I really like how I have yet to hear a negative word about living in "Boise". I have yet to meet someone who does not enjoy living here. I like how most people here really enjoy outdoor activities and enjoy staying active. (given-I have only met a small circle of people- but still.) I like the traffic (except when it snows and there is a blanket of ice on the roads. Not snow, straight up Ice and everyone is sliding all over.) I like the friendliness just whereever you go. I like spending time with some of Eric's family, and how welcoming and homey they are. In many ways, Eric's aunt reminds me of my mom.....or perhaps I just imagine that in wondering what it would be like if my mom were still here.

I really anticipated a whole lot more home-sick and tearful period than I have experienced. I had a really hard time the last few days before i left Tucson. Realizing my family would not be as close and the nieces and nephews who are truly sunshine in my life would be so far away! Many tears were shed!!! I'm not around too many kids up here, but those few moments, I long to hang out with my gang back in AZ.

My job has not been as great as I thought.....yet it has. I have struggled with the new system, but am adjusting slowly to it I think. I used to think I pick up on things pretty quickly compared to most, however, then intensity and level of care has added way more pressure to be precise and perfect in whatever I have to do. I believe as soon as I find more faith in myself and my ability in this new position-the rest will work out. I have met really nice people, and they are supportive and helpful at work.....I just can't wait to feel compitent in my job again.

Eric's business is doing pretty darn well, especially for these economic circumstances. I'm truly proud of all his hard work. However, that hard work brings much time away. He is pretty much all I know around here....and he has had to put many many many hours in a work. But who wouldn't have to starting your own business right-so I totally understand. He has good days, but many days his schedule is way longer than mine, and he is there til 9-10-11 at night, and I don't get to see him. Those are frustrating days. He doesn't let it show too much, but I know having to carry the pressure of completing things at work, highly stresses him out. He handles it nicely and still manages to be quite sweet to me. So I am thankful for that.

Only here two months, and we have already had family come see us. that was exciting. Eric's mom and Kay came a few weeks ago to hang out one weekend, and his dad came last weekend. I realized how nice it was actually having people in the house with me....instead of the constant and sole companionship of my doggies:) (And people wonder why I'm so attached to the darn things.) It made me think about my mom being alone all those years and probably really looked forward to any visitor she had.

All in all.......It is a roller-coaster ride being here, but I'm surviving. That's the name of the game. Fake it til you Make it, right? I mean, who doesn't struggle every day with one thing or another. Sorry for the vent.....but hey....its my blog, I can do what I want! :)

Randomness....

2009-02-12T18:16:00.000-08:00

I found a few random pictures to post...but not much to post about. The weather here in Idaho is still cold. My job, is still hard but I'm liking it. Eric's business is taking up a LOT of his time, but it is growing and those two are working hard.
Oh, and ....I chopped and dyed my hair. So here it is. Not the best picture, but the only one I have. Gotta love my dog trying to bite my hand. Truth is, I hate it. The color I like, but the cut is awful. The girl cut it crooked, so there is a huge hole in the side, but I'm not cutting it again, til its a little longer. I didn't want it to be any shorter right now.

One afternoon we took the dogs up the mountain and played in the snow. They are so funny. Mine hope through the snow like bunnies, and I did give in and buy them jackets for outside. Eric face planted it coming down a hill after a picture.

This is just a random pic of Michael, Alicia and I after I got back from Cabo.

After chasing my dogs down in the snow.

This is Marnie's kids and I before I left Eagar....to move to idaho. I love love LOVE these kids. So fun and so sad to leave them.

Check out the New Place!

2009-01-23T19:27:00.000-08:00

So i thought I would add a few pics of my new place. I have taken my jolly time in putting things away....and Have a great need to get some more decorations.....so if anyone has advice on what to put where, please share. I am HORRIBLE at decorating and could use all the help I can get. This first pic is part of the kitchen.

This is coming in the front door. That's Drake, the guard dog, who follows me around more so than my two little dogs. To the left is the office which has my piano in it. a picture is later....

Here's the ole' bedroom. That mirror was supposed to go in the living room, but because of the set up, and a thermostat in the way, it really won't fit anywhere in there right, so we put it above my bed. I think I like it there. And for now it keeps me from wanting a new bed frame. :)

Here's another view into the living room. It's much bigger than my place in Tucson.

And here is my piano. Took it from my mom's house, which was sad, but I am so excited to have it here. I am waiting for the piano tuner, but I sat down at it last night and just started playing....It felt good to play the piano again. I obviously lacked a LOT in my skills, but it was none-the-less a blast.

There is a whole upstairs with a 2nd full bathroom, and two extra bedrooms with a small common area. I really like the house. Oh, and we have a 3 car garage. The house has neighbors on one side (whom I don't think exist. The house has noone in it) and a part on the other side. So, needless to say, its a great place. It takes me about 30 minutes to get to work and walk inside,,,,and when Eric finally gets to move in it will take him about 20-25 minutes to get to work in the OTHER direction.

I started my new job this past week, well, last week, but this week I actually started on the floor. It is the surgical ICU, and I really think I'll like it. It moves at a VERY quick pace, and is a little backward from what I'm used to. The busiest parts of the day start coming around lunch time, when the surgeries, ( i.e-open heart, thoracotomies, Neuros, etc) start rolling through the door. Before it was the morning was crazy busy, and the rest of the day (on a good day) kinda slowed just a tad. Anyway, the people seem great and though I'm still scared, and even more excited. It's gonna be great.

Eric's endeavor, AKA the Whitecap Dental Studio is taking off. They have been pretty darn busy while they iron out the remainder of the 'start your own business' kinks. I have to admit, after an EXTREMELY rough start, things truly are working out and I am super proud of both he and Sean. There are many adventures ahead! Good times!

Made it to Idaho!

2009-01-08T10:05:00.000-08:00

After a very lengthy drive last saturday, Eric, me and three dogs left at 645 am...and made it to Boise, Meridian to be exact around 1130 pm. It was bitter sweet to get here. It made the move real but put an end to the cramped ride! Thank goodness!

We have spent many hours un-packing and attempting to put things away. My rental house here is twice as big as my tucson rental, so I'm still figuring out where to put things. Poor Eric is been stretched in two directions. Unpacking and organizing here....as well as putting his lab together. After many weeks of kicking and screaming (not really) He and Sean's lab is almost at functioning capacity. How exciting that is! I think both of them have reached their stress limit as their goal and plans have been postponed by a month and a half. I'm completely excited to watch them take off in their business adventure!

So far I really like it here. There has been snow, ice, slush, and low temperatures, but there are some aspects that remind me of home. Of course its bigger, but somewhat the same. I start work Monday, found a gym, and started making this house comfy for me. Things are rolling along and the people here have been very friendly. My neighbors came over the first day and even shoveled snow one day. The landlords of my house are this real young couple who own three houses in the area.

I don't have many pics, but I'll post when I transfer them. The other great part is watching my dogs jump through the snow like little rabbits! They seem to love it and are adjusting to this strange place. I miss my family...or at least the idea of my family being close by, but all will be fine. Here's to a new start and exciting adventures! Don't have any further wedding plans yet. Sorry:(

Good Times

2008-12-22T19:33:00.000-08:00

So, this past weekend, I got to watch my niece and nephew while their parents took a little time out to California. They were so funny. We went to see the lights at the temple...and they were all about random poses.

One night, another nephew joined us and we ventured to the Imax to watch The Polar Express "with glasses on"-as Zoe told her parents. I think the some of the animation got me for squirmy in my seat than any kid there. Bringing my dogs is always a hit. But these two had more fun playing and locking and in and out....with this cage than anything.

Cimmeron (my nephew) has turned into quite the trombon-ist. I went to Sierra Vista for his winter band concert. I was quite impressed. He participated in the Jazz Band, regular concert band, and even a low-brass quartet which had to practice on their own time in order ro perform. He is such a good boy. I canNOT believe he will be in high school next year. I'm so proud of him. (the little guy is Kameron, another nephew.)

Here is most of Cimm's personal crowd. His mom, CJ, Kameron, Marnie, Kaulin, Tom, Eric and Ali.

More of Cabo: and Thanksgiving

2008-11-30T12:09:00.000-08:00

Here is the awesome sunset on our last night....on the walk to our suprise picnic.

A couple walking by offered to take our photo....this is minutes after the big Question.
We went on a dinner cruise Thursday night. Although once again it was completely Over-priced---The band was awesome....the food was fantastik....and the sunset/view was killer. Ended up being one of my favorite parts of the trip.

Here is the main attraction in Cabo. "The Arch." Where the Sea of Cortez meets the pacific ocean. Plus a whole lot of awful smelling sea lions. It was cool tho.

Hard to believe, this was actually Eric's first time in the ocean....This is us before we burned ourselves on the trip.

Thanks to everyone for the supportive comments and excitement for our big news. We will tell more as we know more. RIght now just concentrating on the move to Boise. Eric was supposed to leave yesterday, however there are some issues with the office he is moving into. Some kinks have yet to work themselves out. So, he is here for a few more days. Good for me! He is busy moving his stuff and building a dog house for his Drake! His pit-bull Border Collie mix who will take residence here with me til I move. Good dog. Nervous around other animals I think, and my dogs are not sure/terrified of the giant. Good times.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Thanksgiving was awesome. We spent the day hanging out with Marnie....then ate dinner at her in-laws with all my family except Scott and Julianne. They were not able to make the trek to Sierra Vista. We missed them, but had a wonderful dinner. After long conversations that day, it sure made me thankful for my family and parents and the awesome support and love they continuously showed not only us, their own family, but EVERYONE and ANYONE who knew them. It gets especially hard on the holidays to be reminded of every tradition ever known to me is no longer fully there...and our hearts long for our parents. Still....we know they are in a better place, helping us from the other side!

Vacation!!!!!

2008-11-23T18:10:00.000-08:00

We Just got back from an incredible week in Cabo San Lucas! Talk about doing nothing but nothing! I don't know when the last time was i did so much nothing! It was great! We stayed right on the beach in someplace by Melia, and everyday went outside in the morning and layed on these little beds, and looked at the ocean and bathed in the sun! This is a small portion of our view....and picture below is where we stayed. It was really nice. We spent some time on wave runners, kayaks, (me once, eric twice cause I was chicken) Eric did some snorkeling while I got a massage. We ate a lot of overly priced, tiny portioned, not the greatest mexican food compared to here.....but found a few awesome plates as well. We were asked a billion times each hour if we wanted to buy something...(whatever it was they were selling....)....as you can see by all those people in white.....I can't believe how many times they walked up and down that beach.

Anyway.......Now we are getting to the greatest part of the entire trip! So, I don't know how many people know how Eric and I met. Well, we were set up on a blind date by Briauna and Cameron. When talking about it, neither one of us really wanted to go. Another long distance thing....plus the whole Blind date angle. Reluctantly, we both agreed, and finally met late one night in Mesa. Eric picked me up and we went and ate (shared the food even) wings and salad. We chatted for hours (well, he did...) jk. He was rather chatty in a good way. It was comfortable and easy and we laughed A LOT! It was kind of down hill from that point. We spent a lot of weekends together, and had lots of fun. We went up mount lemon, and I took him to a Rascal Flatts concert (front row)....and to that point he still had not kissed me :)

Well, we have been dating for over a year.......and while we were in Cabo he got sneaky. We planned on going on a dinner cruise one night. I asked him to set it up, make the reservation, etc. He did. He was out talking to the concierge lady a LONG time. And when he came back, it was ready to go for that night. Nothing strange. So we went and that was amazing. (I"ll post pics later) There was an awesome live rock band on the top deck, the food was the best I've had...and the entertainment was......entertaining. It was a great night. We only had one more full day left in Cabo.

So the next day, I spent on the beach after a massage and Eric went snorkeling and stuff. We didn't really know what to do for dinner, so after cleaning up, we just went for a walk. Or,,,,what I thought was going to be just a walk. I figured it was the last night, and whatever was fine. Eric was acting perfectly normal. We took off walking in a different direction than most the food places, but I didn't think too much of it. He had mentioned getting ice cream earlier, so I thought we were just getting ice-cream. We kept walking, and occasionally I would ask, "where are we goin." He would just say, "for a walk." and that was fine for me. I was walking slow however, cause I was tired and my feet hurt.

As we got past a majority of the resorts into a small local beach area before the next resort, he started to push me up the beach area a little. I still was looking down at the sand, completely oblivious to my surroundings. Finally, after a few more urges up the sand, I looked up and saw this:

I kept saying, "what are you doing?", completely believing we were about to walk through somebody's perfectly romantic little picnic. He somewhat motioned to it, and again I asked "what are you doing?" Finally he said, "this is for us." AND I WAS SHOCKED! Instantly my heart started pounding out of my chest, and I was screaming inside to myself, "THIS IS IT! THIS IS IT! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!"

So we sat down after taking some pictures of it.....and he told me the story of how he had conspired with one of the girls who works at our resort to help him out on her day off. She put it all together and IT WAS PERFECT! She (Elena) was an angel. She told us she put all her love into it and was so excited to be a part of his surprise!

With the planning on his part, the only thing he couldn't do was get me to "not" snack prior to our little adventure. So by this time, I am not that hungry. But we snacked and tried a little of everything and drank our soda's in our wine glasses...and just chatted. At this point time has gone by, and I am thinking the surprise is the romantic picnic, at sunset, and nothing more. And I was quite content with all his effort and energy he put into it...and how amazing it was.

I got up to run to a resort for the restroom. When I got back, we ate some more. In looking back, Eric was a little fidgety. He was sitting, then standing, then sitting, then standing. Then out of no-where he is standing and says "I also got you this." and handed me a poem. I read it in the little light we had, but it of course brought tears to my eyes. I still just thought it was a nice touch to a special night.

Then: Eric pulls my hand upward, to stand me up, and I did. But....as I was standing, my hand ran down his arm and into his hand.....where I felt the little white box. My eyes had to be the size of quarters and I started to freak out (in the best way possible) as I was freaking out, starting to cry, Eric was kneeling on one knee and asking me to marry him!!!!!!!

Seriously! Of course you see this set up and you suspect....but he really had me believing it was not gonna happen with all the non-chalantness....then BAM! he truly surprised me. My heart was crazy, I really did cry......and It was absolutely perfect!

Unfortunately, he had to talk over my freak out cause I felt the box too soon.........but it worked out perfectly for me anyway. I said Yes!!!!! and that's about all we know for now.

Here is a picture of the MOST AMAZING RING EVER! and he picked it out all by himself! What can I say.....the man has great taste!

Half Marathon---Everyone Runs!

2008-11-05T19:48:00.000-08:00

SO......Somewhere about 11 weeks ago....I got the crazy hair to try to run a half marathon again! TMC was sponsoring the event.....so I decided to do it. Ya. Of course the weekly runs were no fun, and I kept asking myself "why?" Well, last Sunday came and went and I ran......after a week of not feeling well, going out of town, missing runs, I thought I was in big trouble. However, I made it! It's not pretty....as you see, but I made it!!!

I ran a half in Dec 2006....wait, 05 maybe....can't remember. I finished it in 2:21, so this race I shaved off 10 minutes. Which, for me is awesome! I think I wanna do it again. then maybe again.

About 3 miles in....I kinda hooked myself onto these two older ladies who seemed to have a good pace. I kept up for maybe.....4-5 miles, and then had to drop back a bit. The first race I ran with my friend Nikki and her husband Kenny. So the time went fast....and they pushed me. This time it was all me.....Me and the IPOD! Could NOT have made it without it. Good times.

The first picture I swear is me taking the biggest breath of relief. The last mile was horrible! My shoulders felt like bricks I was so tense, and blisters were appearing on my toes. I think the bottom one was the last 3 miles stretch....just begging my mind to keep going.

It was awesome! I'm def doing that again!

Crazy Eights....(thanks Jen....thought this was fun.)

2008-10-20T21:32:00.000-07:00

8 FAVORITE TV SHOWS I LOVE TO WATCH:
Chuck
One Tree Hill
Grey's Anatomy
NCIS
House
Criminal Minds
Numbers
Dog Whisperer

8 FAVORITE RESTAURANTS:
Nico's
Olive Garden
Outback
Short Stop
Booga Reds
L&L BBQ
Taco Bell
Macaroni Grill

8 THINGS THAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY:
Drove the course of my half marathon thats in two weeks
Laundry in my new LG steam washer/dryer
Put all my favorite things from my truck into my new 4-runner
Changed the bedskirt on my bed
Turned in almost 3000 pennies for dollars
Watched football with Eric
Cleaned up after Eric made dinner
Took the garbage out

8 THINGS I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO:
My trip to Idaho next Monday to finalize my new job
Eric and my trip to Cabo next month
Thanksgiving dinner (home cooked! I worked last year.)
Working in the ICU
The half marathon
The move to Boise
My nephews band concert. (he rocks the trombone!)
The cold weather

8 THINGS ON MY WISH LIST:
A new phone
Massage!!!!(stole from Jen.)
Pedicure
Spoiler for the 4-runner
Learn how to cook for real
Cold weather
A Big raise. :)
For my dog to quit chewing on furniture! and destroying my headphones!~

This is for anyone just for fun!

Twelve Long years....

2008-10-13T18:38:00.000-07:00

I had woken up early on Sunday, the 12th, for whatever reason. I think the dogs had been walkin around on the bed. And, the days before, I kept thinking about this morning. And the memories it had. I was laying there....and remembered back twelve years....

It was Homecoming weekend 1996. Most of my siblings had come home for the weekend, though not for homecoming. I was trying to be a normal teenager, out having fun with my friends and cousin, playin and tryin not to get in trouble driving under age. Friday night, my cousin and I went to visit another friend. Somewhere in the midst of it, an ambulance drove by, with the sirens on. Celine Dion was in the Cd player. (weird thing to remember) and the whole truth about my dad hit me all at once. Finally, after a few months of trying to be strong and pretend my life was still the same, I burst into tears. I cried and cried...knowing and realizing, and possibly accepting my dad was going to die.

I went home later that night....and spent a little time with my family that was there....and after saying good night, went to sleep.....only to be awakened, early that Saturday morning, the 12th of October, to the news dad had passed. Now this is just a small portion of the story.....and its a story that is slowly fading from my mind. Twelve years ago, I lost my father to that awful C word! The same word that took my mom as well. Grrrr.....But the memories of them are still there.

I know I posted this picture earlier, but I had not been able to get another picture of him on my computer. They are all hard copies.

Since I lacked a variety of pics, I just picked a few.

This is a picture of my mom back in the day my dad married her....or at least there abouts:)

This is who is left! From left to right, my brother Scott, Sisters Leisel, (me) Angie and Marnie. This was actually taken at my mom's services. We sure have been through a lot, but I love remembering the acts of service and the love people showed our family. Especially after dad left us. As the child....you don't realize how cool your parents are. It's an interesting thing to see them from the communities perspective. Thank you to everyone who offered your love and support. Your comforting words and shoulders. Again, my parents were the coolest! It has been 12 years since I've had my dad......3 1/2 since mom passed! It feels like forever!

Re-Arranging!

2008-09-30T16:18:00.000-07:00

We did quite a bit of rearranging at my place this weekend. Just wanted to show off some of the results. It's so much better than it was. This is the kitchen, well half of it. The other half my landlord has some awful, greenish-yellowish yucky color. But this wall is great!

This is the office. Still needs some fixing and putting away. I also wish we could paint, but again the landlords said no. :(

This is the rearranged living room. Unless you saw it before, frequently, you may not realize the difference. Ha! Look in the corners by the couch. The rug is amazingly soft, so definitely wanted to keep it, but a bit too big for the room. We had to improvise a bit. Reminds me of Elvis, or that commercial where the dude carpets the entire walls and ceiling.

Oh...and gotta love this Monster! Sure makes Greys anatomy so much better:) Ok, and everything else!

The Skank Tank!

2008-09-29T20:41:00.000-07:00

Just wanted to post this pic of Eric on his dad's "Skank Tank." Yes, that is my own personal nickname for the bike. Why you ask? It's one of those bikes that has a picture of a not so nice girl on the gas tank and back fender. Don't get me wrong. The bike is awesome! But needs a paint job. Sun-glasses at night? Ha. That's just funny. Isn't he so cute?!!! Just love him!

Pinnacle Peak

2008-09-14T10:31:00.000-07:00

Eric's dad Robert came to Tucson with Eric this weekend. Fun times. We went out to eat at this place called Pinnacle Peak. Kinda this old western-y looking, show, singin on the street, old general looking stores steak house place. Good times. The food was good and the entertainment.....was ok:) Here's a few pics.... This is lookin down one of the mini streets.

Around back, there was a mini train to take people for rides....apparently its broken right now.

Eric and I on our way in. Isn't he so adorable.....(even the gum you can see in his mouth...:)

This is Eric and his dad watching the banjo playin fool.
Didn't get a pic of him.
HA.

Camping!

2008-09-04T08:49:00.000-07:00

Our last morning camping, Eric and I took cimm on a very fun and muddy ride around the mountain. We ended up at the New Mexico border. Somehow I was the only one who ended up muddy. Eric rode to fast, and Cimm has all his wheel covered on the quad. So as you can see, I was a mess...but it was fun!

It doens't look at bad as it was. BUT.....It was fun! I'd do it again in a heart beat.

Eric, trying to be a good sport at our family talent show. It was raining :)

This jeep belongs to a friend of my sister who camped with us. He bought it from a friend of his who restored the entire thing. Every gauge and gadget on that jeeps works like new. I hear it was even in the movies (or one movie) in its earlier days. I just thought it was amazing!

All the kids begged and begged for Eric to take them for rides on this quad. Even after one casualty, (my neice hit her head and got a gash in her forehead on the handlebars) and supergluing it back together, the beggars kept begging. Good times! I decided we actually needed at least 3 more days camping!

Camping in Luna!

2008-09-04T08:39:00.000-07:00

It has been awhile since I put up any pictures. Not much going on. Over Labor day, Eric and I headed up to Luna to attend my many year standing family reunion. I think I have only been one time since 2000, and it was especially sad without mom there. Dad hadn't been there in so many years, the difference was mom. Not to mention the camping has changed. I remember when there were mostly tents....and everyone stayed together. Now there are very few tents....and lots of trailers, motorhomes, and toy haulers. Fun times no matter what. Probably 50 quads, a few Rhino's, a 1940's completely restored army jeep, 1 motorcycle, a couple Zip lines, a tire swing, and all the water and rain a kid would want to play in! I don't know what it is about water and catching crawdads (sp?)

Anyway, this is a pic of Eric's and my camp, with his Bike and a friend's quad we borrowed for fun!

Did I mention there was one outhouse for a lot of us to share? Ha! Good times!

Every time I looked at this part of camp...it just made me smile! I Love my cousins the gibbons'. They have an awesomely large fun family, and take up an entire end of the meadow. I think they were the first family to ever bring a trailer to the reunion....and now look how they've grown. :)

This is my way awesome cousin Jay-boy! He is a reason this reunion is so....fun. He lives for the company of family every year....and makes us all laugh histarically. Love ya Jay!

A Little Look Around....

2008-07-28T20:01:00.001-07:00

So the other day, we were outside doing some yard work at the house i rent. Including weed wacking....mowing the lawn....spraying the weeds.....re-planting some things....etc.etc. Well, I went to move the garbage can, so i could spray around it....and I found THIS! The tarantula must have been squished when I moved the can cause his stomach-gooey contents were squished out of him, and his legs still twitching a little. I HATE THESE CREATURES! Talk about heeby-geebies! To think of all the times I've walked out there in the dark with no shoes. Yuck!

So, then we moved to the front porch....where spiders started taking over the corners with webs and such...so after we started spraying, we found two additional wasp nests that were starting (forgot to picture those) and those are on top of the one the landlord already knocked down....and then I took a step out, and found this next right about the entrance. I loved it, though the more I stared at it, the more I swore that mother bird was gonna swoop down and polk my eyes out. The last two days I've seen 2 baby birds up there. So neat.

Another pic, just for fun. So.....lesson learned. One must take a closer look around their home. All sorts of things are awaiting...

Riding Quads:

2008-07-20T21:54:00.000-07:00

So....Over the 4th, Eric and I went up the mountain and rode quads up to a look out where you could see Eagar. As a family, when I was little we would go to the same spot for a cook out and just to hang out. I miss those days. dutch oven biscuits and Gravy.....MMMMMMMM.

Eric got to ride the real fast sporty quad.......

While I got to ride my sister's bigger, not so fast, however fun! I hindered Eric in his speed racing....Oh well. :)

Just a quick glance at the trail we followed. Such a beautiful place.

Here's a not so great picture of us at the top, with Eagar in the background. I had to scrounge for "play" clothes at my mom's. Kinda funny.

4th Of July.....

2008-07-13T22:56:00.000-07:00

I have always loved the 4th of July. I can only remember a few I have not gone home to Eagar. This time I especially loved it. The weather was nice....we had a small family reunion (which I missed most of....) and I got to bring Eric home to hang out and celebrate Eagar style. I really don't think he was excited to spend his time off with my somewhat crazy family (in a nice, and always doing something, noisy sort of crazy) but he was a good sport anyway. This is a pic of my truck actually being a truck. We took a quad up to Scott and my sister's boat to hit Lyman Lake. My truck was so low. It's not used to working this hard.

Late at night after the kids went to bed, Tom and Eric found some quality time with the Wii. As you can tell by Tom's face....they looked completely goofy, but were seriously loving it!

After spending the 4th watching the parade and rodeo, plus another family BBQ, it was time for the Lyman Lake fireworks. Everyone in the family except Eric, Kameron , and I watched the fireworks from their boats on Lyman. Dunno why, but us 3 decided we would kick it old school in the back of the truck, cuddled up in a blanket and goofing around. kameron is one funny kid. We had some good quality time with him.

Then of course there is me cuddled up next to my cutie! He was such a good sport. I love him to pieces!

And the Tagging Continues!!!

2008-07-01T20:01:00.000-07:00

How To Play This Game of Tag:

Post these rules on your blog List:

3 joys, 3 fears, 3 goals, 3 current obsessions/collections, 3 random surprising facts about yourself.

Tag 5 people at the end of your post by leaving their names. Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog!

3 Joys:

1. I love my dogs. Everyone says I'm turning into that weird dog lady. Well, all's I can say is, Yes....I guess I am. I'm a bit biased, however I will argue my dogs are the cutest things around. So fun, and funny, and they make me so happy. I mean come on.....I don't have kids yet. Of course then my priorities will change:)

2. I love my job, and when I can finish my day without doubt I have helped someone (which I promise is not everyday), it reminds me why I chose nursing and makes all the crap of each day worth while. Whether its helping someone eat, wiping their nose, listening to them vent, or just ordering them something the "want" to eat. Ok, there are many more details of which I spare the majority of people who cannot stomach it. Bottom line is I have one of the most rewarding yet draining jobs around, and I love it. The reward is absolutely worth the cost.

3. I'm not a great runner, but I really enjoy a good run. By good, I mean a run that I actually lasted more than a mile. And afterwards everything just feels so tired and hurt, yet good. Tight. Sore. Like you just accomplished something.

3 Fears:

1. It's kind of morbid and weird, but I have the hugest fear that one day I'm going to come home from work, and my dogs will be dead. My neighbor's dog up and died one day, randomly, and I always hear random stories of coyotes, etc killing animals in back yards. This is definitely something I think about every day.

2. Most people fear losing people they love. I have a unique perscpective on loss. Of course I fear losing more people I love, but I feels like its different. I can't explain it. What i do fear, is becoming old with dementia and my family having to take care of me.

3. I have a major fear, that one day I'm going to become a robot in my job: too comfortable ....and blindly make a horrible mistake that may end someone else's life. The littlest thing could change the path of another family forever. When i think about that...my job is not so fun.

3 Goals:

1. To keep going to the gym after I'm finished working with my trainer. I have always wanted to 'fix' a few things on my body...and this time I'm going to.

2. I set a goal once to run a HALF marathon. And I did it. I think I wanna set another goal to do the same. I know you probably think, you ran it once, whats the big deal. Well, for me its a great big mental deal. But....I haven't decided yet. So, it's a maybe goal.

3. I am 27 years old, and I suck at cooking. I have a goal to cook. Plain and simple. Be able to follow a recipe to start...but one day to do my own dabbling in the kitchen. I have already started....but it's gonna be a long road....i can tell.

3 Obsessions/Collections:

1. I have a random frog collection, that has actually much slowed down since my mom passed. We had this thing about frogs, and she got them for me all the time. Calendars, Chocolates, Stuffed frogs, frog bank, frog book, frog massager thing....just everything. It was our thing....and i already miss it.

2. Ok....Once again, my dogs. Just flat out in love with them!

3. What to put for #3. Candles....or whatever smells good. Wait, maybe my truck. I'm obsessed with keeping my truck clean...only lately it has gotten the best of me. I hate a messy dirty smelly car.

3 Random Facts About me:

1. I have a love hate relationship with JohnJay and Rich. They tend to be absolutely corny at times, but I can't quit listening to them.

2. I love the feeling after a gigantic sneeze. The relief is awesome.

3. I'm secretly in love with "The Dog Whisperer!"-ok, just intrigued by him!

Ok-Now the tagging part. We'll see who really reads this stuff:

Kristen, Annie, Marnie, Nicole, and Shelley (sorry if you've already done it. I can't remember right now who has or has not.)

The Clan

2008-06-18T15:33:00.001-07:00

Thanks Jen, I thought this was fun. :)

Create your own family sticker graphic at pYzam.com

Papa Joe.....

2008-06-15T20:49:00.000-07:00

IT BEING FATHER'S DAY AND ALL, I COULDN'T LEAVE OUT PAPA JOE! TALK ABOUT A WEEK OF MEMORIES! WHAT A COUPLE MY PARENTS WERE! THEY LOVED THEIR FAMILY AND THEY LOVED THE GOSPEL! THEY ALWAYS SET A TREMENDOUS EXAMPLE OF FAITH AND DEVOTION.

I'M GLAD THEY ARE FINALLY TOGETHER!

Remembering Grandma Karen....

2008-06-11T20:54:00.000-07:00

It is super hard to believe that is has been 3 years since my mom passed away. Three years today. How quickly and how slowly time goes by. I miss her lots! Especially that contagious laugh.

For those of you who knew her....you know her laugh....and you also know she was known by "grandma karen."

I'm not sure she ever like my hair styling....but I did get to style her hair often. Not much you can do with that short of hair. I'll never forget the time we had together, caring for her the last few months of her life. What a fighter. Her strength is admirable.

This picture was taken the day I went through the temple....the last day my mom went through the temple. She was happy to be there....and had many friends and family there for support, but this day was extremely tiring and difficult for her to endure. I'll never forget her never ending selflessness.

Nobody can inspire and motivate their children like a mother. I often find myself wondering what she would tell me about my life right now.

Love and Miss you more than words mom!

Random Pics.....

2008-06-09T16:51:00.000-07:00

This is Eric holding my youngest nephew Jonathan....who has a tendency to only let males (strangers) hold him. Too precious. He wouldn't even really let me hold him. If he does....its for moments at a time. Look at those big brown eyes and beautiful complexion:) All my brothers kids are blessed with skin and dark features like that.

On our way back from Idaho we spent some quality time on none other than Ms. Pac-man. Oh, and that other space game. I beat Eric at pac man.

This is little Miss Zoe Bug, during one of her T-ball games! So funny to watch her. When she bats....she absolutely has to have about 8-10 practice swings, ya know, where they pretend they'll hit it to practice the line up. So funny to watch little kids find their coordination. Not only is she just learning...but she's left handed, putting a twist on everything.

Zoe and Zach had a game at the same time. This is Zach up to bat with Coach Pitch ball. He hit the ball great, and I guess had a couple double hits this season....and I think a triple. The kid is hillarious and come a long way with sports.

This is one of Jonathan's big sisters taking me down. Jessie is a spit fire....and often reminds us of grandma Karen.

Favorite Bed

2008-06-09T16:47:00.000-07:00

This is the most awesome bed EVER! My total dream bed...and the furniture that goes with it is all old, country lookin. However, it has also been discontinued....the new bed has a black leather and wood head/footboard.....I could buy it now....however the room I live in is so small.....It would not fit another thing in it. Hmmmmmmm......Maybe its worth it.

IDAHO FOR THE WEEKEND....

2008-06-09T16:23:00.000-07:00

This past weekend, Eric and I took of for a trip to Idaho. Boise to be exact. We went to check the place out. Plans are to move that direction come the end of the year. Beautiful. The day we returned, only a nice 60 degrees!

We had the chance to drive up the mountain to Idaho City. It was for the most part, an awesome drive....(once we hit the mountain part...:) ) There was river running by the road for most of the drive. We stopped just for a second to check out the scenery.

Being that the sun rises in Boise somewhere around 6ish(?) and doesn't set until near 11pm, it was easy to hang out late. These are a few shots just before trying an awesome steak house in town. The bread and salad were delectable! (which was the word of the night for our server/bar tender) The Prime rib was nothing more than below average. But it was definitely a good time. the place reminded me a lot of Texas Roadhouse.

Here's Eric striking one of his many poses as I kept messing up the pictures.....

Not to bad for a take it yourself pic. I am not very good at those!

Just for fun :)

This is the tragedy I came home to. The yard at my rental place has manual sprinklers....so just before I left I mowed the beautiful, long, green-all-the-way-around grass: Today, 5 days later of 100 + heat scorching hot sun, without a sip of water......THIS IS WHAT I HAVE. I have to start all over! Grrrrrrr......

Oh well. The trip was fabulous! We always have a great time....and we definitely owe Sean, Tina and their two cuties a thanks for the hosting and entertaining!

Here's to idaho!!!!!

HAPPY MENTAL HEALTH DAY!

2008-04-30T17:46:00.000-07:00

....I got this from my boss today....

Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have:

Ralph and Edna were both patients in a mental hospital. One day while they were walking past the hospital swimming pool, Ralph suddenly jumped into the deep end. He sank to the bottom of the pool and stayed there. Edna promptly jumped in to save him. She swam to the bottom and pulled him out.

When the Head Nurse Director became aware of Edna's heroic act she immediately ordered her to be discharged from the hospital, as she now considered her to be mentally stable.

When she went to tell Edna the news she said, 'Edna, I have good news and bad news. The good news is you're being discharged, since you were able to rationally respond to a crisis by jumping in and saving the life of the person you love. I have concluded that your act displays sound mindedness. The bad news is, Ralph hung himself in the bathroom with his bathrobe belt right after you saved him. I am so sorry, but he's dead.'

Edna replied, 'He didn't hang himself, I put him there to dry. How soon can I go hom?'

Trip to New York....

2008-04-29T21:10:00.000-07:00

Last summer I got to take a trip to New York with some friends. SO MUCH FUN! Loved the city. Wondered if I ever could REALLY live there. Lots of site seeing. Lots of walking! Lots of good food. Lots of crazies! We visited the Today Show....on the day Enrique Iglesias was there....

In Tucson and Phoenix there is a radio show who at the time was talking with Enrique daily. Their names...."John Jay and Rich." Apparently there was another girl there from Tucson who made arrangment to MEET Enrique. On the side of the blog...there is a picture of us with Enrique. Here is us with the sign and a close up of the cutie! Best of all.....I got to act like a retard on the radio for quite a while! OH.....and......Enrique kissed us on the cheek, TWICE!

More for Eric......

2008-04-22T21:23:00.000-07:00

Eric said I needed more pics of him....so I decided to add some of the pics from a few of our many trips. We spent christmas in Utah. Here are a couple from that.

Eric in his Beenie....so cute!

The trip to Utah was seriously Crazy Cold. Below Zero EVERYDAY! But, we bundled up and Eric, Darren and I decided to go tubing. This was after our fun.

Zoe, my niece absolutely loves to beat up Eric every time she sees him.

This is actually from my birthday weekend in Sedona. We drove a dirt road from Sedona all the way to Flagstaff, taking pictures the entire way....and then chowed down at a Cracker Barrel. Their biscuits and gravy are to die for.

Ouch!!!!

2008-04-22T20:40:00.000-07:00

THIS IS WHY YOU SHOULD NEVER PICK YOUR NOSE!

Meet the crew!

2008-04-22T20:21:00.000-07:00

These are the guys that run my house....or, well think they do. Wicket, Chuy, and Barkley! So much fun. Barkley is definitely the trouble making nosey "little brother". Fun stuff.

Playing a little catch up.....

2008-04-22T17:25:00.000-07:00

Since its starting to warm up......Leisel and Terry, (my sister and bro-in-law) took Eric and I with their family out on Saguaro lake. It was surprisingly too cold to jump in, however awesome for driving around in the boat! We pulled up to the shore and let the crazy Zach and Zoe swim around....and turn blue. It was colder than they thought too!

This is a picture of Eric and I taken at my sisters house by her cute little Ali when we were there for her and Kaulin's baptism.

This is our most recent family Picture....Plus a few extra! My sister's husband's parents are the two gransparents on the left. They have basically taken us all in....and treated us all like family. It's kind of nice when our own parents and grandparents are no longer around. We don't get together, all of us, very often....this was a dual baptism! Kaulin and Ali! How exciting.

First time for everything!

2008-04-21T22:21:00.000-07:00

I decided it was time to try this blog thing out. Myspace has worn out...and frankly I never figured out facebook, so here I am. Trying out the blog stuff.

Seems like fun!

I'm still living in Tucson...contracted at Tucson Medical Center for 8 more months. I can't wait to be done with the desert! I love being a nurse...but I hate how busy it has been lately! I love connecting with the patients. When it is crazy busy that isn't possible.

I am incredibly in love with my dogs still! Chuy and Barkley are my boys! Funny how Chuy is the barker and Barkley is the Chewer! But both are extremely sweet and extremely spoiled.

Guess that's all for now...til I get this blog thing figured out!